Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

Why am I here in Seattle? What is God's purpose for me here? Why am I not going to the Balkans again this summer? Why? I don't know why, and I think that's the way it's supposed to be. Over and over I have struggled with wanting to know what the future holds. And over and over again, God reminds me that I don't need to know that, as long as I trust that he knows. If I knew I might be too afraid to step out, or I would get ahead of myself trying to get to the end of the road and miss out on key knowledge or experience I needed for the journey. Have faith like a child, He reminds me. Trust Me. Has anyone ever added a day to her life by worrying? Everything works for good for those who love Me. I don't know exactly where I am going, or how He will get me there. But I know that this is a new chapter of the story of my life. I believe I will get to go back to the Balkans someday, but not for now. For now, I am going to be content to be here, and be the best World Vision phone rep that I can be. I'm sort of sad to leave an old beginning behind, but who knows where this new beginning will lead me? It might be even better!


There is hope for me yet
Because God won't forget
All the plans He's made for me
I'll have to wait and see
He's not finished with me yet

Still wondering why I'm here
Still wrestling with my fear
But, oh, he's up to something
And the farther on I go
I've seen enough to know
That I'm not here for nothing
He's up to something

(Wait and See - Brandon Heath)