I don't know what this means, but three people have asked me this week if I have considered Peace Corps. I have, but never felt like I was allowed to pursue it beyond interest. It is hard to be reminded of things I want - have wanted for years - but am not allowed to have: travel, work I am passionate about, the feeling that what I do matters. I just can't shake the fact that I would like to be a PCV. God, is that something I am allowed to hope for? I don't think I can bear more disappointment.