Have you ever felt that feeling that everyone you know has people who are much more important to them than you are?
I think it has only just hit me lately - now that classes and work have slowed down and everyone else is on vacation - that I am very much alone. I have few close family ties to speak of and few close friends who live in the same city. Kinda sucks. Happy hour by yourself isn't very happy.
A friend of mine whose husband recently died wrote a blog post about how she feels now that she is "nobody's #1." That's how I have felt ever since my mom died 7 years ago. I know that I am nobody's first priority. But I don't think I fully felt the impact of that until now. Maybe it's just much more obvious now that most of my friends are married or in relationships or live other places and don't have time for me. And sitting by oneself in medical clinic rooms gives much opportunity for this realization.
In my head I know that I am God's priority, but it doesn't really feel like it.
Like I said: not feeling very brave today.
